Time to Celebrate!

Hey everyone, Today is a great day for a celebration.
Five years ago i was in the hospital laying in bed, finishing up the last treatment for my second and final Bone Marrow Transplant. (more on this a little later) I have been doing check ups on a consistent basis to make sure that i am still clean and clear. My blood counts are still working on getting back to normal, they are low, but for me, they have become a new normal. These counts usually are fully raised by the year mark. My body has started making estrogen on it's own now and is waking up.  I am no longer on medication to make estrogen.

A bone marrow transplant is the killing and removal of the baby bone marrow. If the baby marrow is good they can plant it in later, usually though, it's not and they have to use a donor. I was fortunate to be able to be my own donor. This makes the chances of rejection much lower. Your body recognizes that the marrow is yours and not foreign. I got chemo for three days straight and then when my blood counts bottomed out, i got my bone marrow back. Because your counts bottom out, and often you have new blood in you, the docs say you are reborn and count that day as your remission day. I had such a strong treatment that they needed to do this process twice. I have had all my immunizations redone. I am the oldest and the youngest child in our family.

Another reason to celebrate, our anniversary is this weekend and we are celebrating being married for the hardest year, the first one.

Work is work, life is lessons, and love is enjoyable. See ya all friends, Hubs and i are done with work now and we will be heading home to relax and enjoy a nice clean and cool (temp) home. Until we meet again! 

Delicious Beauty

A warm, fluffy piece of bread tastes so succulent. Every bite is a new excitement. You are embraced by the sweetness in the air and it's leaving your body anxious in anticipation for a delightful experience of flavor and texture.

Hubbs and I are in a phase in our lives right now were we are anxious in anticipation for the new adventures that are to come. In a little under two weeks we will be experiencing something we have been waiting for close to three years. We have gotten to the point were we can say that we are accomplishing our first year of marriage. This year has brought challenges to the both of us that are good and bad. We are learning to live together with our interesting quarks and completely accepting who the other is in all different aspects of life. The first year of anything isn't ever really easy. This is because you are learning what to expect and learning how to maneuver situations in an acceptable manner. Any challenge is a turning point and will help mold the choices of the future.  As we are coming up on the momentous occasion, we have reflected on our times together over the years and we embrace those moments that brought us closer together. I knew shortly after meeting Hubbs that I wouldn’t regret it. I had found a place I could trust again, I could feel safe and at peace. I knew that no matter what came our way, we would figure it out together. In the moment of these hard times, it’s often not the first thought, that everything will be fine and work out somehow. Instead the thought is “hurry and dash for the nearest answer, excuse, reasoning, or so on and so on, that we can find.

We have spent many nights talking about our plans for the future and where we want to be in five years. The main idea is that we want to be madly and deeply in love. We want to be happy, and we want to be level headed and know where our priorities are. As long as we are both on the same page with this and how we will accomplish this goal of ours, that is all that matters. I thought when you get married, things are just hunky dory and that problems don’t come up. You don’t have to try so hard to make people like you, and you don’t have to try so hard to be the person you want to be. I WAS WRONG.  You have to keep trying and keep being involved in each others lives. You have to keep trying to better yourself. In order to survive your marriage, you can’t just get in a pattern or rut and never move. You have to find new interests with each other, communicate about each others day, even when you already know the events that came about. Talk about each others feelings, hopes, desires, hobbies. Always try to keep in mind that there is more about your spouse that you don’t know, when you search for these interesting stories and attributes in your spouse you are growing closer together and maintaining excitement.

Now, enough of me being Mrs. Preachy here. It’s summer time and you know what that means. Air conditioners, fans, sprinklers, swimming, road trips, family and friends. We have just arrived from what seems like a month vacation. We have been driving from place to place, taking road trips that seem to be never ending. Each time we take this trip, it seems harder and harder to sit still and endure through the pain of my stiff body sitting in a tight and restraining area. These trips always include some type of family, and when family is involved there always seems to be some sort of drama. This little annoyance can drive a person batty. (Even more so then the bar that is digging into your back as you are driving down the highway.) Don’t get me wrong, I love my family, sometimes though people over step the line and I hit my breaking point. It’s a thing of human nature, we all do it. The trip seemed like it was going to be long when we were planning it and we were wondering what we were going to do to pass the time. Once we got there we realized it was going to be an interesting trip. Many factors just happened to placed just right to make for funny, awkward, and joyful moments. You clench your teeth and hold on tight for the ride. 

Friends, you need them to pull you out of the window of reality sometimes. While one of the situations on our trip made it so we couldn’t really get around transportation wise, we found ways to fit in time with (some, not allL) friends. You start to realize once you have been away from your close friends (sometimes this happens, not always), that your life is veering a different path than your friends. While you still may have a lot in common with them and you enjoy their company, the realization that life just isn’t the same anymore strikes like a lightning bolt to the forehead.

Family, they will always love you for who you are, even when they complain. You are stuck with your family and you can’t always choose them, so you might as well learn to deal with it. Little things will always come up that will strike pain in your direction.

Money, isn’t always going to be around when you want or even need it. Learning to become creative with limited resources, is a handy habit that all should create in their life time.

These are all things I have learned in my life up to this point. But, an interesting thing happens as you get older and have a different perspective of things. You learn a value to things around you that you don’t often think about. You realize how much man needs people around to keep one in a sane mind frame. One of the most important lessons that often gets forgotten though is the beauty that is all around you. We get so caught up in our own little world where everything revolves around “ me “. We don’t take time to see the different colors that go into paint on a house as you drive by. You don’t see the unconditional love that humans have for other living creatures be it human, plant, or animal. You value your life and the huge fact that you have been given the blessing of breath. Without that wonderful blessing, we would be nowhere. We as an individual and a collective, need to make sure that we take time out of our day (preferably several times a day) to just sit back and think about what you have been able to witness in the last two hours. Taking this time in our lives to really acknowledge and appreciate what we are able to do and be apart of is what our true lesson in life is.

This will be the new congregating place to stay up to date and aware of what is going on in this brain of mine, and to see what Hubbs and I are up to. Feel free to leave comments just please be respectful to the fact that you have been entrusted with this page, don’t be sharing it with the world. I am doing this so that you can be involved, I don’t like being quiet just because of one idiot who ruins it for everyone, I just change and leave them behind.

Have a great day my faithful readers and stay connected.

Best wishes, Yours truly Sophia Bumble.