We decided we wanted to start the adoption process because we know it's going to take a while for us to get started and get into the system and we are hoping we could have a child before D graduates and we move. We chose an agency and then they decided to close down the adoption portion of their program and so we will no longer be getting an adoption at a discounted rate, instead we have to pay close to $18,000 now, all up front so we decided to slow things down and save money up so we can get started with payments when we are moved into our new place and settled.
I had a great job for about 9 months working at D's school and helping students interact with the public in educating community members about the importance of taking care of their bodies. The new manager didn't want me apart of his team so I am taking a small break to recollect myself and try to build up my confidence for finding a new job.
D just finished up his first of three years in his program at school and it has gone by amazingly fast for the both of us and I think it's just wizzed by, so I have hope that the next two years won't be that bad.
My medical stuff is up in the air. I have been trying for the last year to get medical insurance so I could do necessary blood work and regular testing. Issues have come up though and it has me concerned. I have my first appointment in two weeks to start everything up again in the check ups and testing.
We recently had family over at our house for a week and it was so amazing to me. I had such an experience I never want to forget. I thought our home was filled with love and peace until this family stayed with us. I felt so amazing and it's unexplainable how much love I felt in our home and how complete it felt to have those little kids playing downstairs every morning and watching them run around playing with each other. I loved watching the interactions between everyone in that family and it made me really see how far I am from the goal I have had of what I want my family to be like when we had our own place. I just keep praying that I never forget those feelings I felt the entire trip and how peaceful it was. Now with them gone, it feels so cold, bare, lonely, quiet and I don't like it. I started crying and cried for two hours straight and then on and off again the rest of the day so far and its only been less than 12 hours since they left. The spirit was so strong and I feel it as it's fading away as I am trying to fight myself of getting on with my normal everyday activities and just sitting there to feel it all and take it all in. Such an odd and strange place to be in.
Other than that nothing new has been going on with us. School for D kind of dominates everything in our lives right now and everything else is background revolving around what needs to be done for him to succeed. Hope you are enjoying your holiday weekend and enjoy everything going on in your life. It's so special and we take for granted so many things that shouldn't be ignored or forgotten. Live every day to its fullest and take a moment to follow the emotions and feelings you have. Don't take for granted everything around you in your surroundings.
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